DISCLAIMER: All thoughts are of my own and some statements are in Filipino language.No direct person is pointed out on whatever criticism I made on this entry.
It was unbelievable that I've managed to stay in this hospital for 3 fruitful years. I can still remember how eager I was to apply here eversince I was in college. And that is why, I processed my application right away 3 months after I passed the board exam.(masyado kasing excited,Haha!) The day after my birthday was the start of NTAP and it was overwhelming to be part of a batch with a hundred members. Likewise, I found the hospital so huge that I often get lost between 2 towers until I got officially employed by March 2015---the start of real work and gaining new perspectives.
I started at 5A-OBGyne which was rough to begin with. It was difficult getting along with my coworkers while I was very prone to create numerous errors.Truth be told, I frequently end up crying every after shift which led me to thoughts of quitting---but i HATE to be called a quitter so I made a bargain of myself to finish my 6-month probationary. Apparently, I aced the exam for regularization and decided to continue as looking for another job was difficult those days.And so,my first year of employment became an era of adjustment as I handled cases from different walks of life,being pulled out from different areas and familiarizing with the whole process.I was already building my confidence to do my work properly until all of a sudden,I got transferred to another department. Sumama talaga loob ko nun kasi nilipat nila ko habang naka-bakasyon ako. It felt like I was about to start from scratch again yet others said that this might be a stepping stone for me. Hence, I gave it a try and went through a month of training.
To my 5A workmates, thank you for being patient with all my lapses and for helping me to grow in the area. They are my second all-female family next to college.Some would proclaimed me as the 'dead kid' but I'm just trying to focus on tasks and I could really be shy being the youngest in the group! ;p Cheers to the beeping hugs&kisses!
March 2016 was the beginning of my very own 'ER-serye'. Everyone hates the area so much but it left me no choice but to accept this change. At first,I thought that it wasn't as bad as it sounded like because about half of my NTAP batchmates are there and happily, I got assigned at the pediatric section. Yet that didn't halt me for errors. Basically, there's a difference between working at the ward and in an outpatient basis. During my first few months at the ER, people would tell how slow I am and quiet(i don't even get it why the act of silence can be a bother to them).I have been very immuned with such comments since then so it's just a matter of showing continuous effort with my work. I became cautious and resilient until my position progressed from a bedside nurse to admin work (triage/billing clerk). It was fun and fulfilling being assigned at the front of the area inspite that it holds a lot of responsibility. Indeed, it boosted my confidence and definitely challenged my patience 'cause patients are very demanding(hashtag real talk!).
2years after(2018), I got transferred again as an admin clerk/orderly at the adult ER. I knew this would happen as all of us(especially the seniors) are obliged to be rotated on each section anytime.But me not functioning as a nurse anymore?Well it was honestly disappointing. It took a lot of positivity for me to accept this transition---Like there are those who say that this would be some sort of a resting period from toxicity but on hindsight, it was a slave kind of work from the nurses.Akala mo kung sino sila mag utos to be exact. Nonetheless, those thoughts were choked,of course. I kept working besides the pro factor of going home early. On the other hand, there were still moments that my superiors gave me the opportunity to handle patients and I'm very thankful for it. I usually spent at the non-urgent section then when I was passed down at Urgent, I was able to witness almost all kinds of cases for 2 days! (except B.A.T.Ergo,this is how toxic I can be.Haha!) It was nerve-wrecking but I've learned a lot as this was also my first time in the medical adult field.
To my ER fambam,thank you for all the fun moments amidst the chaotic area that we are in.Truly 'we are all in this togethER'!HAHA! Laging may tulungan ! Especially to my ER pediatric family whom I've spent with the longest,thank you for giving me the opportunity to handle cases from the younger group. I have always aimed to work in a pediatric area someday and I am grateful that I was given the chance to do so (and aside from that, I've met good colleagues!Which same goes to the adult area)❤️
I'm so glad that I started and ended here: at ER Pedia.❤️ My dutymates on my last day of work.
Then on June 30th, I ended my job. This resignation was quite planned for I have no plans of pushing through for the next half of this year. Moreover, this was also one of my bargained decisions which I think is not blog-worthy to say anymore ;) I may want to keep this job a little longer but having feelings of frustration(and sometimes,wrath) is not healthy at the workplace anymore. However, I want to leave things in a clean slate and so,thank you! I'm honored to be part of this hospital and I have no regrets. I will definitely miss my colleagues,the benefits and the paydays/bonuses that I always look forward to! :)
Lastly, here's a few words for the juniors: KEEP WORKING no matter how hard it is to get along with the people around you.Focus and keep your pace! because at the end of the day, you aren't paid to please others but you are there to practise your profession. ;)
'til we all meet again,TMC.❤️
